One thing about cancer….. long after there is no evidence of disease, it still finds ways to come back to haunt you. There is that little thing called chemotherapy and it creates havoc on your body. But maybe it is also a way for the Father to tell me it is time for a change.
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Spiritually, I have allowed myself to become depleted. I need to allow myself to be drawn back into His presence. I have been in a void……limbo……lost in a fog of gray matter. For one, I need to find the way and the inclination to create some quiet uninterrupted space…… and I think He has revealed that place to me.
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Like I said earlier, the cancer had taken its toll. The chemo has affected several parts of my body from my hearing to my nervous system. It has also affected my only kidney I was born with as well, and so yesterday prompted much contemplation as to the physical changes that I need to make. I need to totally change my diet and try to fit exercise into the picture. Finding the time for that has been challenging as well, but as my doctor told me yesterday, “It is time you make time for you because you need it.” I have been noticing how my ankles have swollen so I know it is serious. I need to go on a low dairy/protein/potassium diet….. which pretty much eliminates most of my favorite foots. (No bananas?!) He had mentioned sodium as well, but I am not a big user of sodium. My biggest culprit is probably fast food although I have been skipping the fries lately. But we also decided completely eliminating sodium is currently not an option due to another health issue that requires some sodium. It is time for me to stop turning a blind eye from what I have become and ask for the support to make these changes. My severely introverted self is currently staging a protest but I must allow vulnerability and so with that, I am posting a photo of me….. in all my “glory”. Finding that photo is a challenge as I usually do not allow photos of myself. Perhaps later I can take a “Before” photo.
Accepting and maintaining these challenges will take a great deal of support so I would appreciate any encouragement given.
A Tattoo On His Palm 
Making the change to eat healthy and start exercising is important, and hard. But it will pay off in the end, and the time you spend alone with God will also benefit you. I’m praying for you right now, that God will give you the strength to begin and to see it through.
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Thank you very much. It is nice to have the support.
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God’s got you in the palm of his hand. He sees your frustration.
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Thank you!
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The best news is that God’s strength is in you. And as you make steps to a healthier diet and exercise plan God will walk with you. Prayers that you can feel His healing and steadfast hand in these steps toward change.
Marissa
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Thank you for your kind words of encouragement.
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I’ll be praying for better health for you, for freedom from illness and the side effects of treatment, and that you will find a diet and exercise program that will be perfect for you and enrich your life. ❤
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Thank you for your prayers
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Perhaps it is the lighting 😉 , but that picture is beautiful to me. I especially adore the loving man holding your arm and smiling.
Stay strong dear sister. Cancer is no joke. One of the strongest enemies has attacked your very body. But the Lord of Angel armies is right behind you, and when you ask Him, He will lead the way. It won’t be easy. It won’t be fun. But you can rest assured that He has never lost a battle and He never will. When we are in Christ, He fights for us–and that was always my comfort.
Blessings,
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Thank you for your kind words and prayers.
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God’s got your back – and so do we 😀
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Thank you so much!
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The Lord will see you through this. I will definitely pray for you.
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Thank you so much!
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Changes to eat healthy and start exercising is can be difficult. But they’re so important. Praying for God to give you wisdom and strength in this new season of life!
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Thank you for the encouragement!
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Eating healthy and exercise do not come easy. I’m praying God will increase your determination and that you will feel Him helping you every step of the way. You can do it!
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Thank you so much!
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Wow as many relatives had/ have cancer this made me very emotional… I wish you all the best and send you positive thoughts… It takes courage to talk about these things loudly in public, I look up to that. Have a wonderful day! Xoxo Deniza
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Thank you so much and please stop in again!
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I definitely will do that 😉 Have a great day :*
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