My Angel In Heaven

2119051 (1)   Three months after Lexi was born I got pregnant again. (early December) Unfortunately the day after I found out, I started bleeding.

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The OBGYN goofed around with it constantly taking blood-tests. My numbers were all over the board. Maybe I was pregnant. Maybe I lost it. Maybe I didn’t. Because they did not want to deal with it over Christmas they kept me in limbo. It was a miserable Christmas. Finally January 3rd, they suddenly decided I needed emergency surgery. After searching for awhile they finally found the baby….. in a Fallopian tube to an ovary I supposedly did not have.

     The one person who came through with the support was from where I least expected it. My mother-in-law. Not only did she seem sympathetic but she remembered when that baby would have been due and said something to me.  At the time I was feeling really depressed so the fact she remembered meant a lot to me. I think she remembered the following year as well.
It got better and the kids, especially Lexi, still talks about that baby which would have been finishing elementary school last Friday. I am hoping my grandmother is enjoying her great grandchild in heaven.


ONE SWEET DAY
Sorry, I’ve never told you, all I wanted to say
And now it’s too late to hold you
‘Cause you’ve flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feelin’ and knowing you, hear me
It keeps me alive, alive

And I know you’re shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
One sweet day
Eventually I’ll see you in Heaven

Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you’d always be there
I, I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared

I know you’re shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
One sweet day one sweet day
Picture a little scene from Heaven

Although, the sun will never shine the same
I’ll always look to a brighter day
Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
One sweet day

And I know you’re shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
One sweet day

Sorry, I never told you
All I wanted to say

 Mariah Carey

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